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How to Make a Piano

Posted By outsideeye on Mar 12, 2012 at 9:44AM

On my brother’s infallible recommendation, I watched a documentary the other night called Note By Note: The Making of Steinway L1037. It’s about the factory in Queens where they make Steinway pianos — the Cadillacs of the piano world.

This movie was sincerely one of the most moving and riveting things I have ever seen. The filmmaker chose, at random, a grand piano whose birth and fate was tracked from the logging mill in Alaska where the wood was born to its final destination in Carnegie Hall. The process of making a Steinway takes almost a year, and is an intricate and elaborate affair. Steinway is one of the last piano companies to survive the falling-out-of-favor of pianos, and they still make every single piano entirely by hand in the exact same way they did a hundred years ago. The piano is an incredibly complex instrument with many parts, and every single part is created and attached by hand. Each person who works in the factory has exactly one job — a job they do perfectly and over and over.

There’s a guy who’s spent the last 40 years of his life hand-chiseling divets into the part that holds the pin that holds the piano wire.  Someone else hand-shapes each key. Another person strings it.There are three different people who tune the piano in different ways. The thing spends a month just being tuned. Every inch of it — even the parts you’ll never see — is perfectly handcrafted and designed.

Every person that works in that factory has reverence for their job and the artwork they are creating. The love and care and perfection and artistry that goes into each piano is breathtaking. That’s why Steinways are so expensive and why they are considered the best concert and parlor pianos in the world. Each piano, because it’s made by hand, has its own sound and its own disposition. So musicians are very particular about which one they play.

Back in the day, everyone had a piano in their parlor. But now, it seems, only the very rich and classical-inclined bother. So the piano business is sort of a dying art. However, it’s a rarified art that should not be allowed to go extinct. That would be a very sad day indeed.

I don’t play piano, although I once thought I could.

When I was little, my mom, who worked nights as a waitress, one day brought home a piano. My Great Aunt Beatrice was a one-room-schoolteacher in rural Vermont, and I think it was through these school connections that my mom got her hands on a free piano that no one wanted anymore.

It was really not a great piano. It was an upright, and it had been painted sea foam green. It was never tuned. It was ugly, and no one in my house even knew how to play piano (although my mother once did, rumor has it — she is probably going to read this and protest that she still does, in theory).

I took a mild interest in this piano for a period of time. I learned to play the requisite Chopsticks and maybe a few Christmas carols. I liked the idea of being able to play the piano. But, like many things in my life, rather than actually do the thing, I read about it instead. When I should have been practicing, I would curl up in a corner with the enormous hardcover collection of books about classical composers that my mother had also brought home one day. I became riveted by stories of Chopin and Mozart and Beethoven. I was stoked when that movie Amadeus came out, because I already knew the debaucherous story by the time I was ten.

I never really did learn to play that piano, and neither did Elia. Eventually it turned into another flat surface for us to pile books on. I think that piano is probably still in my mom’s foyer. It’s never been tuned, as far as I know, and the thing probably hasn’t been played in 20 years. But I will say this: I still love Classical music, and particularly when it's heavy on the piano.

When I watched Note By Note last night, I felt sad for the old piano languishing away in my mom's "parlor." But it made me realize how much my mom prioritized creativity in her children. Which, as far as I am concerned, is the singular most important thing a parent can do.

Oh and if you are into parlor pianos and things old people do that are super cool, please check out the new creative project I just launched with Leslie Munday: Elderchic!

 

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On Sleeping In

Posted By outsideeye on Dec 5, 2011 at 4:54PM

I have never been a morning person and getting up early has always been a struggle for me. In fact, getting up, period, has always been a struggle for me. I like to clock about 9 hours of sleep a night and if I don’t, I generally feel like murder all day. Except between 9pm and midnight, when I always feel completely alert and pretty much fantastic, no matter what.

It’s not uncommon for me to stay up until 1 or 2 in the morning reading or writing or watching mindless sitcoms, but luckily for me I work for myself and don’t have to set an alarm. Not setting an alarm is a way of life I am quite devoted to, in fact. You might say it’s a personal philosophy. I think the world would be a better place and we would all be better people if we were abiding by our own natural sleep rhythms. For me, that means I don’t generally wake up before 9 in the morning, and sometimes later, depending on the time of year and how enthralling the book is that I am currently reading until the wee hours. (Which, right now, is the new Steve Jobs bio and yeah, it’s a good one.)

Occasionally I will make the mistake of having a soda at the movies — like I did when I saw the incredible Steampunk (thanks, Maynard) masterpiece Hugo the other night — and then I’ll have an even harder time getting up because of the sugar hangover.

This is not just laziness or petulance on my part. It’s my genetic legacy. The other day I called my dad at 9:30pm East Coast time and asked him what he was up to. He sounded groggy and out of it. I thought I might have woken him up. And I had. “I’m napping,” he said grumpily. That’s right, napping. When pressed, he elaborated that he generally naps in the late evening and then gets up and starts painting. “Jos,” he said, “You know I get my best painting done between midnight and 3am."

My dad is retired and recently managed to finally shake his horrible evil coldhearted wife of the last 25 years, so he can afford not to set an alarm or bother to care what society at large thinks about what time it is appropriate to get up in the morning. In this way, he is my hero.

Roughly 15-17 times a week, someone tries to convince me that I should really get up earlier so that I can better accommodate their schedule. My exception-less refusal is just one of the many reasons I'm starting to suspect that I will always be alone. But as long as I can sleep in, I'm fine with that. Oh, and before you start to suspect that I'm a nihilist, here's my Christmas tree:

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Pictures Worth A Few Hundred Words At Least

Posted By outsideeye on Nov 15, 2011 at 11:21PM

My mom (Judith) and my brother (Elia) were just out here visiting me in California. We did a lot of things. So many things that I'm kind of exhausted and can't string a sentence together. Luckily, there are pictures for times like these:

Elia and I went to the mall. Yup, the mall. That's how we do.

I tried on this sweet hat. It will be mine.

 

We went to Cirque du Soleil and fell in love with 22-year-old trapeze artists wearing yellow tights and then we stood around at intermission and texted each other from 3 feet away. That's always fun.

 

We rented a phat house out at Stinson Beach, lit a fire, and read books.

We conquered this "hike" aka flat stroll along Limantaur Beach in Pt Reyes.

 

We walked and walked and walked and walked and walked.

And then whoopsie, we made just a wee tiny wrong turn. Judith didn't mind having to tightrope-walk across a muddy, banana slug-infested swamp. We just saw the Cirque du Soleil, so.

 

We hung out on Stinson Beach late at night and thought about skinny dipping. But didn't.


We hiked the Dipsea from Stinson to DTMV. Yes we did. Cuz we're badass hikers.

And then we ended it all with this epic sunset. God love the Pacific.

 

 

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A Poem from the Dump

Posted By outsideeye on Mar 17, 2011 at 8:03AM

My dad's emails are so perfectly succinct and yet laden with so much nuance. They are basically haikis. And this recent one is a poem within a haiku:


jos,

i was at the dump the other day

and found a book of poems

one poem was called  along the road

by robert browning hamilton.

here it is:

 

i walked a mile  with pleasure

she  chattered all the way

but left me none the wiser for all she had to say

i walked a mile with sorrow and never a word said she.

but oh the things i learned from her

when sorrow walked with me.

 

i will send you this book when i'm done with it

love,

pops


 

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The Thin Line Between Lying and Storytelling

Posted By outsideeye on Jan 1, 2011 at 10:32AM

The natural storyteller in me has a yen for embellishing basic facts. I think this is why I loved The Life of Pi so much.

I’m so good at embellishing, in fact, that I sometimes end up believing my own stories after I’ve told them enough times. I’m not really talking about LYING per se. I’m talking about simplifying the truth to make it more entertaining.

For instance, there was the time that my mother told me that the singer/songwriter Ray LaMontagne had moved to my rural hometown in the Berkshires, and the next thing you know I was telling my friends that he was showing up at my mom’s bar, The Ashfield Lake House, carrying on impromptu jam sessions. This story—which is actually a really plausible one and could totally be true, except it isn’t—lasted for quite a while, until I made the mistake of repeating it in front of my mom. She was like, um, no. That has not happened.

Read the rest on the Recovering Yogi web site...

Oh, and happy new year, y'all. Here's a short film my Recovering Yogi co-founders made to celebrate the turning of the annus. (That's right, you heard me. It's Latin, bitches.)

(In case it doesn't load, you can click here to go right to YouTube.)

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“Only Boring People Get Bored”

Posted By outsideeye on Dec 5, 2010 at 10:56AM

My mother used to say: "There are no boring things; only boring people." (Usually in response to my complaint about being bored because we didn't have a T.V.) I've taken this concept to heart my entire life since and am pretty awesome at keeping myself busy — at least mentally. I can entertain myself in a dark windowless box with only my imagination for company. This is one of the reasons that meditation is both easy and incredibly hard for me.

I’ve always thought that this quality would come in handy if I ever ended up in prison or stuck on a desert island. However, I recently discovered that I am a fraud when it comes to being impenetrably unbore-able. There is, it turns out, one situation that induces acute boredom for me: FISHING.

My dad is out visiting, and since we have literally nothing in common, I have been scrambling to find things we might enjoy doing together. Luckily, my good friend Maynard shares one hobby with my dad that I coerced him into letting us piggyback along for. So to be fair, this was absolutely my idea and Maynard really did his best to be accommodating, despite the fact that I spent probably the entire time complaining about:

  1. Being cold
  2. Being hungry
  3. Having to pee
  4. Being bored

 

And, out of the 10+ hours* that Maynard and Curt were fishing off the pier in Tiburon, I only actually tried to be a good sport for about ten minutes, total. The rest of the time, I sat shivering in my East Coast down puffy jacket in the nearest coffee shop, drinking hot Earl Grey tea with milk and playing Words With Friends on my iPhone.

I’ve never been a recreational activities sort of girl and I should know by now to try not to act cool about maybe potentially being one after all. But a nice leisurely day of casting lines on the Bay in December… that sounded kind of poetic in my pre-mind.

Sadly, it turns out that my imagination’s ability to babysit itself can be overridden quickly by biting cold Bay Area December weather and the merciless damp rocks that I was sitting on. (I have to admit that my dad’s really awful Polack jokes didn’t help.)

I am duly humbled and must redact my original statement about how I don’t get bored, or at least modify it: I don’t get bored… as long as I’m in my comfort zone.

On the positive side, it’s nice to realize that, in the absence of a parental visit to remind me how utterly uncool I really am, I’ve found a nice sort of harmony in my life so that the boredom rarely manifests. I’m a little worried about that desert island scenario, though.

* Just so I don’t get in trouble for hyperbole I must confess that “we” were fishing for about two hours, not ten. But, it felt like ten.

 

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Things That My Mom Used to do That Bugged Me That I Do Now

Posted By outsideeye on Jun 27, 2010 at 10:01AM

Every woman alive could write their own version of this. It's not an original idea. But it sure is fascinating, watching yourself turn out just like your mom.

Here are some of the things that Judith used to do that drove me bonkers as a child:

  • Wrapping presents creatively with really beautiful tissue paper and raffia instead of good old-fashioned landfill-bound shiny commercial gift wrap. Growing up, I wanted my gifts to look like everyone else's gifts, and I wanted them all to match. I wasn't a big fan of the artsy homemade decorating. But now? I actually have a box full of gift supplies that consists mostly of re-purposed tissue from other gifts and retail purchases, along with plenty of raffia and other found objects. I wouldn't buy a roll of Walmart gift wrap with a gun to my head.

 

  • Speaking of boxes, apparently I hoard things, just like Judith. I have an entire cabinet full of empty boxes, yet only one tiny closet for my actual clothes. I will throw out a cashmere sweater before I throw out an empty cardboard box. Let me just say that boxes are pretty much the only thing I hoard. In all other ways, I'm a purger. For example, this is the current contents of my refrigerator:

 

Notice how everything is pulled forward to the front of the shelves. I can't stand when stuff lurks in the back evasively.

  • Storing food in unlabeled Ball jars. When I was growing up, our kitchen was unfinished and our bulk food was stored on exposed shelving in glass jars of all different sizes and shapes. I hated the hippie look and longed for order. I hoped desperately for a Martha Stewart cabinet system with matching Crate and Barrel containers. Now, I store all my food in old Ball jars. The more mismatched, the better. And I drink out of them too. Which, in a twist of irony, Judith hates.

 

  • Never vacuuming. Judith hated vacuuming and it was usually cause for a pretty serious grump session that I would try hard to avoid. Guess what? I hate vacuuming too, and have been known to stomp around the house complaining loudly about how unfair it is that I don't have a maid. It's quite unfortunate that only my cats are privy to this particular form of hysteria.

 

  • Shopping straight from the farmers. I grew up in New England farm country. We got our milk right from the farmer down the street. We got our veggies from the garden in our yard. I coveted the junk food I saw on TV. We never had it. Guess who loves to shop at the farmer's market now? I even got my hands on some unpasteurized, fresh "squeezed" cow's milk recently, and oh my yum, once you've gone there, there's no going back.

 

And speaking of TV, I only watched it when visiting my grandparents. Because the country TV we had? It only got one station: the Sesame Street channel. Judith was not a big advocate of television. I felt duly deprived. Guess who doesn't own a TV now? (I do, however, watch shameless hours of bad television on Hulu.)

 

And an added bonus for things my dad (Curt) used to do that I really hated, but love now:

I feel most comforted and at home listening to bluegrass music. It's true. What can I say; it's in my blood.

 

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My Dad and I are Pen Pals Now

Posted By outsideeye on Jun 20, 2010 at 10:10AM

My dad's name is Curt, and that's what my brother and I have always called him. My parents weren't into the whole "mommy/daddy" thing.

Curt is a retired carpenter, hobbyist oil painter, and passionate bluegrass musician. He lives in rural Massachusetts, 3,000 miles away from my home in California. I see him once a year if I'm lucky.

Curt likes to brag that he studied computers in college when he studied engineering at UMass in the late 60s. Back then, of course, computers were a very different animal. The school probably had one "computer"—a gigantic, room-sized mainframe that only the engineering students had any hope of ever glimpsing in person.

Almost forty computerless years later, someone gave Curt their old desktop computer, but he has yet to figure out how to use it, despite his alleged extensive computer training in college. I get the occasional sporadic email with the lone word "test" in the subject line. When I reply to it, Curt calls me on the phone.

And by phone, I mean landline. Remember those? He did get a cellphone, at one point, "for emergencies", but he never could figure out how to turn it on, never mind answer it or make a phone call. So, that paperweight didn't last long.

Staying in touch is a hurdle for us, but suddenly a few months ago, after 38+ years of knowing each other, Curt and I became pen pals. I started getting letters in the mail. I think Curt is trying to meet me on my level. He knows that I'm a writer and that I loathe and abhor the phone. I must emphasize that these letters were his idea.

I love them.

Neither of my parents has ever been much into the family aspect of being in a family. But all of a sudden Curt has started to fill me in on his childhood. He sends me these one-page chapters from his growing-up experience, replete with awesome line drawings like the one at right. The drawings remind of something from The Little Prince, but that might be because I've been somewhat obsessed with Antoine De Saint Exupery lately.

My dad's childhood was not awesome by conventional standards. He and his nine brothers and sisters were raised in the slummy projects of depressing Worcester, Massachusetts by their underemployed single mom, Peg, after their dad left the family and ran off with another woman. Peg managed to raise ten kids by herself on very little money, and as far as my dad and his brothers and sisters are concerned, she was right up there with Mother Theresa.

I remember Gramma Peg as an overweight, chain-smoking, highball-drinking semi-stranger with a house overrun by my millions of cousins, so that I never got much attention. (Apparently, the Hamiltons are meant to be breeders, so not sure where I went wrong.) I had a preference for my other grandmother, who favored me because I was her first grandchild and doted on me from day one.

But my dad remembers Peg, and his entire childhood, with nothing but love, gratitude and respect. Curt's ability to appreciate the simple things in life and to be happy with what he was given is an admirable trait that I both envy and aspire to every day.

It's taken me way too long to realize that Curt is a not just a great dad, but a pretty awesome role model for me in this life.

Oh and also, he doesn't read my blog, so in case you are wondering, I am not just trying to get on his good side. I tried to get him to read my blog for a while, but he would just get impatient with me and say, "What the hell is a blog?" I gave up.

 

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The Best Time to Plant a Tree

Posted By outsideeye on Mar 31, 2010 at 12:16PM

"The best time to plant a tree is twenty years ago. The second best time is now." An old Chinese proverb

I literally planted a garden this week, so in keeping with The Artist's Way's obsession with synchronicity, it was the perfect time to read this quote.

Mark my word, if you want to get in touch with your relationship to nature and this phenomenal earth of ours, plant something. I've never been much of a green thumb, but over the last few years I've gotten bold and courageous about my right—as a child of nature and whatnot—to plant things. Last year I sprouted an English pea from a wee baby, a few months ago I invested in some hearty houseplants, and just this past weekend I decided to create an herb garden.

My bonsai herb garden

Judith (my mom) always had an herb garden when I was growing up. We lived on a woodsy plot of country property in rural Massachusetts, and in fact there were three gardens in total. The herb garden was my favorite, as it seemed to hold the promise of fairies and mystical things beyond my imagination. Herb gardens are a unique juxtaposition of ethereal and practical. On the one hand, they seem so extravagant and poetic... on the other, you can eat them, which makes them pretty useful.

However, I had zero ability to garden when I was younger (or zero interest, is probably more like it) and so mostly just followed Judith around while she did all the work and occasionally let me pick snow peas or tomatoes or parsley.

So, back to my own modern day herb garden:

This weekend I planted lemon balm, English thyme, golden lemon thyme, fernleaf dill, gray garden sage (my favorite of course), curly parsley, Italian oregano, and peppermint. So far, they have nearly doubled in size. Yesterday I made fresh lemon balm tea, which reminded me of a trip to Peru that I made with Judith a few years ago. And later I made a vinaigrette salad dressing out of fresh thyme.

Dig it

And if you really want to talk about synchronicity, I started reading Mark Coleman's book Awake in the Wild, which is all about meditation in nature. I planted my herb garden (and just to be totally honest, as you can see by the picture, it's a miniaturized bonsai-sort of garden compared to Judith's ambitious affair) right next to where I like to meditate on my deck.

Oh, so getting back to the quote at top. There are a lot of things I could apply this to in my life. One of my big self-suffering topics is regret: I should have gotten a degree in literature instead of art; I should have had kids twenty years ago; I should never have dated that "one" loser; et al.

But, since it's too late to go back and plant trees in the past, I guess the only real option is to start planting them now. I started with my herb garden.

 

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The Artist's Way, Week Eight: Early Patternings

Posted By outsideeye on Mar 14, 2010 at 12:16PM

One of the things that is emphasized over and over in The Artist's Way is how we have to get past the tactics that our parents and other early critics used to condition the innate creativity out of us. In this week's chapter we did an exercise called "Early Patternings" to quote/unquote try to excavate what happened to our poor, abused early artist.

I'm extremely well behaved about reading all the chapters, following all the rules, and doing every single task. However, the "early patternings" stuff simply doesn't resonate with me.

As far as my early artist goes, there weren't a lot of scathing critics. My parents—both being young hippies and aspiring artists themselves—weren't exactly the types to look down on creativity. In fact, a lot of my earliest memories were about doing artsy things with my parents. We didn't have any money, and we lived in a severely rural part of New England, so most of our entertainment was self-made.

They sent me to a communityWaldorf-style school when I was 3. They (tragically) let me and my brother dress ourselves from the time we could walk. They indulged my harebrained delusions of becoming a ballerina. They didn't blink an eye when I said I was going to go to art school and major in pottery.

Early on in the process of doing The Artist's Way I wrote this letter to my mom. I have been wavering on whether or not to send it. Judith doesn't really like the mushy stuff, and she's pretty private. So if you too don't like the mushy stuff, and you don't want to be a part of me outing my mom, better stop reading now.

Judith was 27 in this picture.
That's right, 11 years younger than I am now.

Dear Judith

I remember being very young and sitting at the kitchen table coloring with you. You always encouraged us to do creative things with our time instead of watching TV or playing with stupid plastic toys. We were constantly undertaking projects like making our own Christmas tree ornaments or baking cookies or painting murals on the walls of our rooms. At some point you brought home an old piano that someone had been getting rid of, and we all took turns really sucking at playing it.

Your own creativity was always an inspiration to me. You made clothes; you gardened; you cooked; you quilted; you made jewelry; you had that awesome Quaker-esque weaving loom that took up half your bedroom.

I am so grateful to have grown up in a home where creativity and art was encouraged and the consumer bullshit was kept to a minimum.

And beyond that, thank you for sending me to Syracuse, for being supportive of my decision to go to art school and to get a degree in photography and ceramics. Thanks for not being the kind of parent who encouraged or demanded that I pursue a more "practical" career. You've never once given me advice to do anything other than what I am already doing, and while it has taken me quite a while to find something I actually like to do, I appreciate your patience and your occasional financial support over the years.

If I could have one wish it would be to see you get back to your own creativity and re-embrace your abundant talent and passion for making things. I know that it's your calling.

Love,

Joslyn

 

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- Antoine de Saint Exupery

Joslyn Hamilton



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After ten years in the yoga industry as a teacher, studio manager, and minion for alleged gurus, I started a freelance writing business: Outside Eye Consulting is based in Marin County, California, ground zero of the vapid yoga scene. Subsequently, I am one of the founders of the irreverent community forum RecoveringYogi.com. And in my spare time, I run my imaginary spice company, SimpleBasic and post daily musings to another favorite creative side project, Elderchic.

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In January 2012 I wrote a small stone every day for the River of Stones project. You can read them on my Tumblr page.

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